30 June 2007

Time to hang it up


Most clergy I know crater after Sunday services and obligations. Such was the case last weekend after presiding at a eucharist in a tiny, stuffy house. (I was dripping by the end of the second verse of the first hymn.) That would sound simple enough but the night before I'd been up to 3.00 at a vigilía with the young adults of the congregation and then had ridden in the back of a pick-up truck (muy salvadoreño) 105 minutes to the place where we were holding church.

So when we arrived at the centro pastoral Cristo Rey in Jiquilisco, I migrated immediately to one of the two hammocks for some rest.

Likewise, it is time to hang it up in order to be functional for church tomorrow.

De regreso


So, finally, I am back home and if I am lucky, I don't have to deal with an airport again until September. Hooray.

This shot I took of the airport in El Salvador (Comalapa, about 35 kms south of San Salvador). Up until this year, the letters on the top of the building used to be red but sometime between last August and this June, they changed them to blue/white/blue, the colours of the Salvadoran flag. I miss the red letters because the new ones don't stand out as well.

I took this from my first-class seat (!). I was travelling with a colleague who has lots of miles on TACA but I think we were bumped up because we were patient as the trainee took 25 minutes to check us in. When her supervisor told her to put us in first class and she asked why, the answer was: Courtesy. It was quite nice to have LEGROOM on the five-hour flight from San Salvador to NYC.

As for flying out of JFK on a Friday morning on the weekend before the Fourth of July and after two nights (Tuesday/Thursday) of thunderstorms that cancelled hundreds of flights and created a backlog is like descending into Dante's ninth circle of hell. Later I will perhaps go into detail, but right now, I am so tired that I think I need to take another nap (I only got three hours of sleep Thursday/Friday night).

Por fin estoy en casa.

18 June 2007

Miserere mei


Lord, have mercy on me.

I have sooooooo much left to do before I leave for El Salvador tomorrow at 4.00 in the morning.

I don't normally have three major trips back-to-back like this; it wasn't really poor planning on my part, they just piled up like this. But I feel like the quintessential road warrior who comes home, dumps one suitcase on the floor to pack up the next (because each trip demands a different set of clothes and luggage), barely touch the mail and emails and see the cats in passing. Not my cuppa.

My goal is to print out everything I am able and pray that whatever else I write on my computer, a good USB clave (thumb drive) will communicate with the PCs in the diocesan office in El Salvador and I can print out things there.

It's off to do an overnight continuing education/retreat for the clergy on vocation, and an overnight (truly) conference for young adults (18-25) on discernment of ordained ministry and for a wider group vocation. Then, there are always the surprises that are not on the calendar yet.

So, once again, it's bye to the kitties and to blogland, too. Hasta luego en una semana.

[The photo comes from the absolutely amazing cathedral in Burgos, Spain. The guidebooks refer to it as diaphonous and it is true: I have never seen such lacy gothic vaults and buttresses.]

17 June 2007

Proper 6C



After two weeks of pondering wonderfully uplifting images of the Holy Spirit and the mystery of the Trinity, this morning’s lectionary readings seemingly present us with heavy-duty, nitty-gritty questions about human frailty.
We can feel the shift in theme with our lectionary readings, hinted at by this and last week’s. All the way from Easter, through Easter-tide, to the twin feasts of Pentecost and Trinity, a period of nine weeks, we’ve walked with the risen Christ, seen the risen Christ in the midst of the disciples, heard again and again about the commandment to love and, in general, glimpsed, albeit very imperfectly, God’s glory.

Now we are in the season after Pentecost, that time of year the Romans call ‘ordinary time’—or, as Nora Gallagher writes, the time during which, “The road to the sacred is paved with the ordinary. In Ordinary Time we are in our own lives, living out the gift of the Holy Spirit at Pentecost, ‘living out the reverberation from that beat of a butterfly wing… on its way to the ends of the universe.’” (1)

The readings over the next couple of weeks make us deal with the nitty-gritty, nuts-and-bolts aspects of living our lives as followers of Jesus. They are not easy readings, some of them; they confront us and don’t leave us room to back away. So it is with this morning’s gospel (and first lesson, though I won’t consider it).

There is something unique and powerful about this story from Luke. It is a story where all the roles are reversed and where a moment of grace flashes in and startles all who witness what happens.

Jesus has been invited to a Pharisee’s house for dinner. This is already unusual, given the continual animosity that played itself out between the Pharisees and Jesus. For some reason, one Pharisee invites Jesus to eat with him. Picture the scene: they are at table, which in those days meant that they were reclining, on their sides, their legs stretched out to one side. The door was open — meals were often public events, the door to the house open so that others might come and listen to the conversation or teaching of a special guest. The diners were most likely inside a courtyard of a house, somewhat removed from the street.

It is, therefore, very surprising that a woman should enter that inner sanctum and interrupt the men. Having heard Jesus earlier on in the day, and grasped his message of forgiveness, she comes to the Pharisee’s home. With her she brings an alabaster jar of ointment, possibly myrrh, the same oil that will later be used to anoint Jesus’ body for burial. Her gift is extravagant, to say the least.

The gospel states that she is a sinner. Even since the beginning of biblical interpretation, it has automatically been assumed that her sin is that of prostitution. Yet there is absolutely nothing in the text to suggest that. The gospel simply states she is a sinner — like you and me, for that matter. She is a sinner, yes, but also more aware of the power of God’s gracious gift of forgiveness than most.

As she ministers to Jesus by anointing his feet, she covers them with her tears. Her tears are tears of immense gratitude — she has heard God’s message of forgiveness that Jesus preaches and has accepted that in her heart. Her tears are holy tears — tears that speak when verbal capacities are short-circuited by the immensity of the realisation of what has been offered: mercy and pardon.

The Pharisee, hung up on his rules, thinks to himself that Jesus is no prophet because he allows this woman to touch him. He does not understand what gift the woman is giving to Jesus — the gift of ministering, the gift of taking care of Jesus, the gift of gratitude. Instead, he focuses on the woman’s sinfulness, while neglecting to consider his own.
Jesus catches him at thought and sets the Pharisee straight. Doesn’t the Pharisee see how he, too, is a sinner? Doesn’t the Pharisee see what this woman has done for Jesus that the Pharisee failed to do? In Mediterranean countries of that time, it was expected hospitality that the host wash the guests’ feet — undoubtedly they would be dirty from travelling on dusty roads. The Pharisee failed to do that; the woman has given of herself through her tears, her oil, and her washing Jesus’ feet.

Then Jesus turns to the woman and tells her that her sins are forgiven. Not ‘have been’ (though initially the text reports him as saying that), but ‘they are forgiven.’ In Greek, the use of this particular verb tense signifies an act that has happened in the past with an on-going effect. The act of forgiveness has already happened. Its effect continues into the present. It is clear to Jesus that the woman has understood with her mind and heart what God’s forgiveness is all about — it is a forgiveness that has been given even before it has been asked for; it is a forgiveness that never stops. With that understanding of forgiveness, the woman is then able to give freely in a way that the Pharisee, hide-bound by his rules and regulations, is unable.

Martin Smith formerly of SSJE writes, “Aramaic has no exact equivalent to our words ‘gratitude’ or ‘thanks’ and uses the general word ‘love’ to cover these things. We might bring out the force of Jesus’ words with a paraphrase such as this — ‘Her many sins are forgiven, that is why her gratitude is so great. The one who is forgiven little, shows little gratitude.’ The woman’s outpouring of thanks and affection shows her realisation that she was personally included in the forgiveness that Jesus proclaimed. By declaring, ‘Your sins are forgiven,’ Jesus confirms the reality of her experience of reconciliation. There was no presumption on her part. Her trust in the outpouring of God’s mercy had brought her complete restoration. She could go in peace with her relationship to God intact and living.” (2)

This story of Jesus and the weeping woman is a lovely story at the same time it is powerful. It is a story that serves as an example of what can happen when we finally come to realise God’s boundless goodness.

When we allow ourselves to be forgiven and when we forgive, we can be freed from the shackles that bind us. George McDonald, founder of the Iona Community in Scotland wrote, ‘Forgiveness is the giving, and so receiving, of life.
For what do you need to be forgiven today?

What is hardening your heart day by day for not being admitted or acknowledged or healed?
Whom do you need to forgive?

Where do you need transformation?

Transformation ultimately is what forgiveness brings about. Transformation, letting go, and receiving new life. Getting there is hard work but we don’t do it alone — God is there, wooing us to forgiveness so that we might again be whole, just as the woman with the oil found herself. When we are whole, then we are able to give without counting the cost.
We don’t walk the path of forgiveness without help — help found in the sacrament of new life, the eucharist. In the eucharist, God welcomes us home, forgives us, and gives us new life. So, in this ordinary time of year, we find extraordinary good news. Thanks be to God.

END NOTES
(1) Nora Gallagher, Things Seen and Unseen: A Year Lived in Faith (New York: Knopf, 1998), 203-204.

(2) Martin L. Smith, Reconciliation: Preparing for Confession in the Episcopal Church (Cambridge. MA: Cowley, 1985) 5-6.

16 June 2007

Simple prayer


Para los que leen español...

Invocation
Jesus, my Lord, my friend,
you, icon of God,
you, font of communion,
of liberty and love,
you who are my servant,
you always walk with me.

Translation of the prayer to come another time.
It's time for bed.

15 June 2007

Everett's poppies


This wonderful poppy plant with seven more flowers to come is a volunteer that showed up in the garden four years ago. I call it Everett's poppies for this reason:

A native Vermonter and dairy farmer, Everett used to inspect my vegetable garden after church, during coffee hour. The last summer of his life, we got into a silly conversation in which he asked me: Do you own a hoe? Yes. Know how to use it? Yes. Then why don't you? He'd razz me about the weeds in the garden all the time.

Right after he died, literally five or ten minutes after his death, while his three adult daughters and I were waiting for their mother to come out of the ICU, we started to laugh about his garden inspections.

One daughter said: Oh yes, he used to put insecticide on your tomato plants.
Me: He did????????
Same daughter: Oh no. You didn't know?
Me: No.
Same daughter: Are you organic?
Me: No, the garden thrives on benign neglect.

So then another daughter said that for sure her father would send a sign the following summer, something like a huge weed.

Instead, the following June, there was a lone poppy and I brought his widow out to see it. Since then, the plant has become Everett's.

Friday cat blogging 2


Just a few minutes ago, all three were in the other room — Young Guy looking out the window at the shed/garage as the sexton's son put the garbage there, La Doyenne in her summer spot, a big canasta I hauled back from Guatemala twenty years ago and Orange Guy where Young Guy usually sits.

When I walked in the door at 1.00 this morning, thanks to ground stop orders and general overloading of the air system at Newark, all three greeted me with loud purrs and wouldn't leave me. It was a wonderful greeting.

When I take a nap later, surely someone will join me.

Friday cat blogging


Here's a Spanish kitty happily looking out of his or her second story window in a somewhat broken down barn in a small, small town that didn't even have a bar/café.

That was a day of walking along the highway for a while but ultimately getting to a large city, Sahagún, where there is a neat Romanesque church. It was our 13th day, a Saturday, so we landed on Sahagún's open market, which was a lot of fun.

Thank goodness for Friday cat blogging. I am too brain dead to do much more than that.

12 June 2007

Off to the Big Apple

Executive Council is off to the Big Apple to visit the revamped office headquarters at 815 Second Avenue, New York, New York. I haven't been there in a while (two years or so) so will be interested in seeing how things have changed.

It's going to be hard not having time to putter around in the City... after all, I lived there for three years and loved it. I haven't been to NYC in over a year. Today there just won't be time. Oh well.

Executive Council meetings are so, so full and yet I so enjoy working with the people from all over who are members of council and also the terrific support staff. For all the naysayers out there about church leadership (having read a piece about rearranging deck chairs on the Titanic as an analogy to The Episcopal Church), I want to say that this group is prayerful, thoughtful, articulate and deeply committed to TEC's mission.

10 June 2007

I couldn't resist


On Saturday 26 May, in Belorado, Spain, as we were walking down the street to visit the local church (that actually was open), we passed this albergue (hostel). I saw the sign and couldn't resist... knowing that with a little bit of tinkering in Photoshop, I could simply get the word, 'Caminante.' Et voilà!

This past Friday, just two days ago, we walked down a side street off the major plaza in Segovia, to find that on it was the small boarding house where Antonio Machado, the writer of the poem from whom I have taken my byline, lived from 1919-1933. It was after dark and I didn't have my camera anyway, but it was neat to look through the fence to the garden where the poet must have spent time among the peonies. It is a small world.

para Padre Mickey


I saw this in a huge park outside of Logroño, Spain and knew I had to take a photo of it with Padre Mickey in mind. (How long ago was it that he posted a photo of the caged Madonna that he passes every day to church?)

There were a few other closed up statues but this one was the best example I saw along the way.

So, enjoy.

Home again


No sooner had I put my pack down on the kitchen floor than Orange Boy decided he was going to claim it as his own. He chose a rather salty surface on which to park himself.

Cats followed me around the house last night and are still ever present wherever I am. Little do they realise I am about to leave in three hours to turn around and go back to the airport, back to Newark (where I spent three hours yesterday in layover) and to Executive Council.

Crazy schedule but I know there are a lot of people out there who travel like this all the time.